Today is October 11th.... already! It is so strange getting this close to your birthday without you here. I love you so much and not a day goes by that I don't think about this great loss. It just goes against nature to outlive your child. I try to think of what it was that I did so bad that I would be punished in such a horrible way. I don't think there is anything... nothing could ever validate the loss of a child. I love and miss you more everyday and I have so much to catch you up on. I know you are always looking out for me and your sister but I sure do wish you were here. Strange how some days can go by and I seem to not get down and out but when I do it seems to be day after day for several days. I just can't shake it. I love you baby girl... wish you were here to celebrate your birthday on the 23rd.