Delissia 18th July 2011

I looked towards the clouds today and for a moment I saw your face. I wondered just where you have gone; with hope it's a better place. Did you show yourself to me today, to tell me you're all right? Or was it just a daydream, playing tricks upon my sight? We will always feel the void inside, because you are not here. But each new thought you send our way, lets us know you're near. So until our journey nears its end, and we hear the angels sing, we'll face each new day as it comes, and live off the love you bring. Missing you never gets easier! I seem to take the good days along with the bad. I am getting used to laughing one minute and crying the next. Just wanna pick up the phone and call or text to tell you stuff that happens in my life. Refuse to delete your number from my phone.... somehow it seems like I would be accepting you are gone. Doesn't seem like it has been so long.... I am still in that fog I guess. Not sure sometimes whether I feel sad, anger, guilt, confused, empty, numb, or all of the above! Funny how the least little thing can remind me of something we went through or a joke we made or simply just remind me of YOU! I know we always laughed and joked about me losing it... but this time maybe I have. Once in a lifetime someone like you comes along and knows just how to bring out the best in everyone! You always brought out the best in me... you were my daughter, my little rock star, and my best friend!! I miss you and will cherish all the memories I have for the rest of my life.