Hey Baby Girl. As with each day I was sitting here having a hard time to concentrate on anything except but how much I miss you. I thought instead of sitting here just dealing with nervous engergy again, I would send a thought on your page just to let you know that i was thinking about you and that each day my love only grows stronger for you. I miss you with everything I am and that will never change. I miss all the long talks we had and how you used to just pop in at my work to say hi and to let me know that you love me!! I love you so much and miss you more and more and more and more each day that goes by. Someday we will be together but it seems like it is so far away. I still don't understand why it had to be this way and instead of taking you God couldn't have taken me since I had already had the chance to live my life. Who knows?? I guess I never will but it won't keep me from asking the same questions over and over again. I guess I think some day that I ask I may just find out. Maybe then something will make sense. But for now, I will continue to just get by and get through day by day in a daze and still in total shock. I will never get to the point of acceptance! I know that this is what the counselor wanted but there is just no way that will ever happen! I love you baby and will never ever forget you and your beautiful short life. Each day something reminds me of one of the many fun times we had or something that you said or did that made my day turn around for the better! Wish we could have one of those moments again..... like now. Sometimes I feel like there is no way I can get through another day without you here, today just seems to be one of those days. Though I still continue to put on a smile for everyone around me to make them think I am ok.... I know that I am not. With the holidays right around the corner it is going to continue to get harder and harder for me to get through the days ahead. Last Christmas was a total disaster, not only did we have the holidays without you which we knew would be hard we also lost Chase right before. I know both of you looked down on us and celebrated Christmas with God and being together with Granddaddy. Knowing that didn't make it easier for us to get by though. I love you so much!!!! Miss you so much!!!! You are the best, I really miss your animated personality that could always make me happy even on my darkest days... oh for just one more day, one more hour, one more minute, I would take anything I could get. Miss you so much, baby girl you took such a huge part of me with you I will never be whole again until we can all be together. Maybe that will not be too long away because in all honesty it is just too hard without you. Love you with my whole whole heart my sweet daughter and best friend.