To my sweet Angel...... I know you are spending Christmas with Jesus this year and are watching over us all. I miss you so much. This hasn't been a Christmas worth remembering without you. Alisa and I have both just wanted to get it over with. If only we had known that last year would have been our last one together. I would have made sure we had a lot of pics of you playing with Talking Bubba. We took all of the pictures with your camera and for some reason the card lost all of them. I will never forget your smiling face when you opened your package. I am so glad I made the decision to get you and Alisa toys from Christmas' past last year. It meant so much to you. I love you soooooooo much.... I miss you with all I am. I don't know how much pain I can get through. My heart hurts so much without you. I just want to call you and tell you how much I love you again. I want to hear your little sweet voice saying "Mommy". You always called me that even when you were older. I really don't want to go on with so much pain in my heart. But I know I have to be here for Alisa and Jordan and baby Cayden. I will tell him all about his Aunt Brittney and how very special you were and how much you truly loved him even though you won't get to meet him. Alisa, Jordan, and I will never let a day go by without telling him all about you. All of your friends have been so good to me and Alisa. I know you would be so proud of them. They all want to have a part in Cayden's life and I am so glad. Maybe he will feel like he knows you with all of the love that we give him and telling him so much about you. You were just so young.... you had so much to give this crazy world. You are so missed by so many people. I don't think you ever knew just how special you really were. You were beautiful, smart, funny, caring, loving, and always ready to give your last penny to help anyone. You always put others ahead of yourself. Unbelievable how quickly you were taken away from us. I feel you all around me and it still isn't enough. I will cherish every memory you gave me and treasure all of the precious pictures and videos I have of you. You will always be my best friend and my baby. Watch over us all, even Boo. He misses you like crazy too.