Mommy on 03/24/2011

Good morning Beautiful! That song is a blast from the past, lol... Was always my wakeup song for you in the mornings. I would sing it to you and your sister in the mornings to hopefully get you out of bed in a good mood. I remember the first time I did it. You smiled real big and gave me a morning kiss and told me you loved me. After that it was just another way of me saying time to get up and you decided you would be your regular morning perky self. LOL (You hated mornings) Today is the day that Brad and I are off to Florida! couldn't sleep with the anticipating I guess. I am finishing up on the last minute packing and double/triple checking everything. You know how anal I am... can't miss a beat and things can't get off schedule or I lose it. I am trying really hard to keep the calm persona for everyone but you know I just want to scream. Wish you could be here. I know how much you loved the ocean and the beach. You would probably be packing up with us to head down too. You made a lot of great friends that are now mine. They have been a great comfort to me and Alisa and are such great girls! I wish we had of gotten to know them when you were here so we could all enjoy time together. I have learned some great lessons from you little girl... some hard lessons. You were a great person - beautiful inside and out. Material things never mattered to you... friendship did. As long as people were good to you - they were your friend and you stuck by them. It never mattered what anyone else thought about it. I think there are a lot of people that need to take lessons from that. You were so diversified when it came to that. Young, old, fat, skinny, pretty, ugly, tall, short, smart, not-so-smart, race, gender, etc.... everyone was your friend. If your other friends were uncomfortable around them you never cared. I miss you sweetheart with all I am and am so glad you were that way. Now, I have gained so many great friends and extended family because of you. I am keeping my heart and mind open from now on. I do have opinions but they are just not the same as they were before. I am a stronger person because of you and I can hold my head up high knowing that I raised two very smart and beautiful girls (inside and out)!! Nothing like feeling that PRIDE that I feel because of YOU and ALISA. If I never got one thing right in my life before you two, I definately got two things right when ya'll came along. Alisa and I both miss our third muscateer but you are and will always be a part of us. Every day I feel you around me and I am blessed for that. I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU WITH ALL I AM...