Brittney, Im not really sure why you have been weighing on my mind so much. Maybe it is that Cayden's 1st birthday is just right around the corner or maybe it is that I have been so confused and stressed lately I just need to talk to you. I need to feel unjudged and that is how you were. I knew no matter what I told you it stopped there and you didnt judge what I said or what I did. I broke down in Wal-mart the other day. Sad right? i passed a shirt I knew you would love and the fun crazy things we did at wal mart came rushing back to me. I am having a hard time with so many people I love being taken from me, Either by death or by relocation. Soon I feel I will be completely alone. Zachary is so hyper and talking so good. If only you could see him and hear the things he says. You would roll for hours. He is alot like you. He loves being the center of attention and WILL get it one way or another. lol I feel strange talking to a computer screen but this and your pictures is as close as I can get to you. I can't bring myself to go to your grave. It just hurts too much. I love you sis and miss you greatly. One day We Will make more crazy memories in Heaven. Untill then you have fun up there and send more butterflies this way.