Baby girl, I miss you so much. Seems so strange that it is already October and I haven't heard you tell me for 3 months what you wanted for your birthday! Lots of people think that over time, the pain gets less and less. I beg to differ, I miss you more today then I did yesterday! I wish you could be here to talk to. There are so many things I really would like to run by you and let you tell me what you think I should do about a few things. I never had to worry about being honest with you because I knew you would be honest about your advice even if it was something you knew I wouldn't like. That's what I need right now, I need my best friend and my baby! So strange how so many people have lost children and have gone through the pain that I am now. But for some reason I feel like you and I had something so special between us that no one could ever know or understand the way I feel. I have said it before but we were so much alike we seemed to just connect from day one!!! You were always ready to talk to me about your problems. Some things I probably would have been better off not knowing lol.... I really miss our long conversations and the times that we cried together when things weren't going good for you. I tried so hard to make it better when you started to Gibson County. All I could do is tell you how special you were and that you would make friends soon and everything would be fine. You did and everything was better! You and Britni were inseparable - I think you both saved each other and that is what you both needed. I love you so much and miss you! Chelsea, me and Alisa are going to get matching tatoos for your Birthday! Chelsea is surprising us on what it is, she is drawing something. It is a good thing I trust her (haha). She is a very special person and has really been there for me and Alisa during all of this. I will go now! I love you.... Momma