Sunday is Mother's Day and I wanted to write and let you know that I still remember the first time you called me Mommy. You always called me Mommy even when you were older. I miss you so much I could never describe the hurt and loss I have in my heart. God blessed me with the most wonderful 20 years and 4 months than I could have ever asked for. Those were the days of my life. Now, I just go through the motions. I try so hard to keep a smile on my face while holding back the tears even today. You were always the cheese in my mac and cheese and without you I feel alone, so alone and empty. With so much love around me I still cant shake this feeling. You and Alisa were my life and without you it's hard to go on. I still talk to you everyday, but I don't hear you as much as I did before. It feels that you are further and further away from me. My nights have always been filled with wonderful dreams of all three of us together. These are fewer and farther between. I know if I could have one more chance to talk to you that it would still not be enough but I long for those days we had together. I miss being able to pick up the phone and hear your voice. I love you and miss you so much!!!