Today begins the first Holiday season without you here with us. It doesn't seem like Thanksgiving- almost Christmas. Without you here, I don't look forward to this year like I did all the times before. I remember last year the Friday after Thanksgiving you, me, and Alisa went to the movies to see Twilight. It was so fun- we always loved being together just the three of us and we enjoyed talking about things we liked and disliked about everyone we knew. I love you so much and the three muscateers are left with two and 1/2. Alisa loves you so much she is naming baby boy Cayden "Lynn" Cates after her big sis. We miss you more and more everyday. I wish the pain would go away but in away I never want the pain to go away. If it does that means that I have accepted that you aren't coming back. I don't want to accept it because it makes no sense..... I love you so much Baby Girl- My whole world is still upside down. I love you forever and ever! ---- Momma