Today is one of my official Bi-Polar days. Missing you and remembering that tragic day 7 years ago when I lost you. Hearing your voice telling me how you needed to borrow shoes for your first day at Perkins. I remember telling you that you were welcome to come over and get some of mine but that I would take you to get some the next day. We made a plan, then the next moment you were gone. Our conversation ended abruptly, instantly my life was never going to be the same. Never would I hear you voice, kiss your face, hug you to tell you everything will be ok, never again! I remember the last thing I said to you as though it was yesterday, "Brittney, I just want you to be happy no matter what." In an instant you were gone. The plans that we made for the next day would never happen, never would I be able to plan spending the day with you and Boo. My life changed in a moment, because yours on this earth was over. I have really tried to be strong for everyone and keep going. Each day is a struggle, that has not changed in 7 years. My life seems to be a fog from the moment I lost you until now. So much time has passed but it seems like yesterday when I got the news at the hospital that you didn't make it. You and Alisa were always first with me, the reason for getting up every day, how would I ever survive without you in our lives. One year after your accident, Cayden Lynn came along to bring us some sunshine on this day! Today he celebrates his 6th birthday, such a special child! Our little miracle rainbow baby giving us another reason to go on, to survive. The miracle of life, showing us that we have a future when it is so hard for us to comprehend. I love you so much and miss you so deep inside that sometimes it takes my breath away. Rest in peace my sweet angel, on this angelversary I want you to know that no matter how much time passes, how many tears are shed....... the hole in my heart will never heal, never mend.