My Own Personal Guardian Angel.. Current mood: numb Category: Life This Thursday(5/14/09) will be two months since my sister has passed. I still miss her more than anyone could ever imagine. The days just keep getting longer and harder. Its like a never ending cycle. She just wasn't ready to go. I know she wasnt. And having to get up everyday and knowing i won get a call from my best friend telling me i am the red almost pink power ranger breaks my heart. And sleeping in this room is worse. She used to sleep in here. Same place my bed is now. I have withdrawn myself from soo many people and i am sorry for that. I just havent been myself lately. I put on this huge front of "im ok, i'll be ok" knowing that i will never be ok. I told her i was gonna walk to the beat of my own drum but i just cant do it. It has been almost two months and it still feels like yesterday. I dream about her all the time. The nightmares of the wreck have stopped but every night i have a dream she is one. whether the dream is revolved around her or she is in the background somewhere. I just wish she was here right now to take the pain away. Today we had to right a paper about if we had endless possibilities what would we do. Most people i know put they would have millions of dollars or have material things..but i want just one thing and i will be satisfied. Have my sister back. Have her back down here to comfort us, and make us laugh when we didnt even feel like moving. I would just like to ask all that is reading this to just take maybe 2 minutes and pray for my family. We are hurting more than ever now and need your support.